Nerves

Tomorrow is my first final. YIKES!!!! I'm a little freaked about it. But at the same time, I think I'm fairly ready for it. At least as ready as I can be. And it'll turn out fine. It'll turn out fine. It'll turn out fine. (I have to keep repeating that to myself). I totally screwed up on some homework and turned it in late and got a ton of points taken off! *sniffles* Oh well. Can't change it, just have to excel on the final. I can do it.

I forgot, but I just set up an interview to try to be a head lifeguard out at this school. We'll see how that goes. If I'm subbing and taking two courses (another long story about trying to get money together to pay that and make sure I'm taking enough courses and all that jazz) I don't know how much time I can put towards working at the pool, but maybe a few hours wouldn't be too bad. I can work on homework on Sundays since I probably won't be working those days at all. It might also put me into a position where I could become an assistant coach. You never know when you start making contacts. That would be AMAZING!! That's what I'd LOVE to do. Coach. I love being called coach. I haven't told anyone about this because I'd forgotten.

Well, I've still got another test to be studying for (she didn't even give us a study guide...but it is open book...) and then hit the pillows for a nice sleep and then an early commute to kick finals butt.

Substitute teaching here I come...

So, I'm officially going to be a substitute teacher. Now to make a big (good) impression on the teachers and principals so that I can get daily work and maybe get hired soon. Yay! I'm so scared about it all.

I started a new project. I need to finish a couple of others that I have going. I also need to get tons of studying done too. I'm almost finished with summer school. I think that I only have to take one class at a time in the fall and spring to maintain half-time qualifications so I don't have to start paying loans back yet. Hopefully that's true.

Linda hasn't written me from camp. She promised too! *sigh* Oh well. I'm sure she's having a blast!! Guess that's about it.

You need a juicer

I finally figured it out! The secret to making lemonade is a juicer...even a hand juicer. So, I got one! Then called my mom all excited about it, and she's like, well, you know, you could use a fork. A FORK! I wish I'd thought of that. It would have saved me the 4 bucks I used getting the juicer. But I love my juicer. I even made lemonade this week. Now it's all gone. I didn't put enough sugar in it. I though I'd be sweet enough for it, but obviously not... ;) But I did add enough water. So, I am learning how to make lemonade. Now to learn how to do it in life....

We had this GREAT sermon today by Mr. Burson. It was on growth and how we can learn from anyone anytime if we look for it and try to grow. It was really enlightening for me. It also repremanded me on how badly I treat the people I give rides to. So, on the way home, I tried being nicer and everything and things went so much better. I've got to continue this with them and everyone else. Even people who are annoying. I know, that's not nice calling people annoying, but some people just are and they really can't help it. I'm quite annoying a lot of the time, so I should know.

I so wish I was at camp! Not just for the cool weather either. It's been hitting over 100 this past week. "I'm melting....I'm melting" I guess I should be thankful that I am here and accomplishing the things that I need to accomplish.

Anywho...as Linda would say...I guess that's about all. Maybe I'll make some brownees tonight! Yum! That'd be good. Oh, and I'm thinking about watching 50 first dates. My mom sent it to me to watch. Ok. That's all folks!

Electricity and water

First of all, phones do not like water. Imagine that. In fact, phone companies like to charge you for buying a phone that they're so willing to give to you for free the first time. *sigh* It all just sucks. And no one knows my home number. Oh well. I'm just stuck here alone without any way to contact others. Totally, utterly sucks. Not much I can do about it now. But once again, it's a lesson well learned.

I'm tired. I thought I got less sleep than I did, but I think I got about 5 hours, so that's not too bad.

I wish there weren't hills around here, because then I'd take my bike out and go riding more. But I can't make it up the hills. I know, it's pathetic, but it's true.

One and a half weeks left of school. So close and so scary. I don't know what to do with life.

What do you use when washing your clothes?

I typically thought a person was suppose to use some sort of detergent. Well, today, I was proved wrong. I put the detergent into the washer, the washer did have a funny odor, but thought someone had just been washing something smelly before me, nothing to worry about. Then I put in my clothes, added change to the machine and closed the lid. A nice humming began telling me that, yes, my clothes would come out clean.

I then came back to the laundry room to move the wash to the dryer. A normal occurance when doing laundry. I opened the lid, started sorting through which clothes had to be laid out and which could go into the dryer, when my hand hit something, well, rather a bit hard. Wondering what piece of clothing that could be, I lifted a group of shirts up to find that a dead frog had joined my wash. Yes, I am deadly serious. I found a dead frog in the washer with what I had assumed were my clean clothes. Oh, how wrong I was. Shrieking I trying to figure out a way to get the frog that I had dropped back into the washer, when I had dropped the rest of the clothes I was holding, out of there. Finally, I decided to use the sullied clothing to toss the unfortunate frog into the trash can by flinging it. It flung. And then it caught, on the side of the trash can. It's stiff little arm clinging to the side as though it were alive. Frozen in motion. I shrieked again for good measure, went got some more soap, filled another washer with water and put my frog washed clothes in the new washer. They came out much better having been washed a second time and when I went to remove them from the washer to the dryer, there were no dead frogs to deal with.

Lesson for today, look into the washer before trying to fill it with laundry. And now I know, sort of, what it felt like to be an ancient Egyptian.

Trouble

So, now, my boss calls me Trouble. It just seems to follow me. Parents like to yell at me. Kids like to break their arms when I'm around. I just seem to have it sneak up and tippy toe behind me all the time, where ever I go. But at least now I have a new nickname.

It's funny because my parents named me a short simple name so that no one could give me nicknames. But somehow, people have been able to come up with new names to give me. Like, a couple of 2, 3, and 4 year olds have started calling me Jelly. And in the pool, I've been called Jellyfish, which I think is quite appropriate. It's good stuff.

Sunday, I'm going to a wedding shower. I'm excited. I have to get the present I got all wrapped up though. I don't have a Official Wedding Card to go with it, but they'll just have to deal. OH! and I picked up some great gifts for others! I can't wait to send them!!! I love shopping for others.

Well, I've got an early morning of playing Taxi and getting to church on time. So, everyone, have a wonderful Sabbath!

First crushes

Well, just found out that the first guy I was ever in love with got married. The formal ceremony is still to take place. It's amazing how much that stings, even though we haven't even really talked in years. It does make me feel old though. Very very old. And a bit left out.

So, took my test. Got an 84 on it. Wanted to do better on it. Especially since it was open book. Oh well. I guess I just have to work harder to make up for it.

I ran all over town today. I thought I was finished only to realize I hadn't made it to the bank and then almost ran out of gas. It's been a long day.

Bleach, my new toy

At some point in your life, you should really try throwing bleach on what you think is a clean section of ground and wait 2-3 minutes, come back, wash it off and then see what has happened to the "clean" ground. It's amazing how the spatter will even show up a different color.

Haven't talked to a lot of people lately. Mostly because I thought of calling a lot of people today and well, they've all left town to go camping up in Michigan. *sigh* I feel so left out. Oh well. Next year I will be there too!! (hopefully!)

Just worked on some homework. Not too much, but not too little either. Classes finish on the 30th, so I've got to get in gear and get everything completed. Tomorrow, I take my test. And go shopping and teach lessons and all that other good stuff. But yeah, it'll be good.

Ok, off to try calling someone else now...

My favorite color

in the summer is gray.

I love the color gray in the summer. Gray means rain. Rain means possible thunder and lightning. Thunder and lightning means the pool is closed. And up here, when the weather turns bad, we aren't sent home like most pools. We are kept at the pool, being paid to goof off. Or in my case, work on homework.

Speaking of homework, I'm almost ready to take my first test in my Everyone Can Learn class. Not that I'm at all freaked out about it....right....I'm so freaked out about not passing. I just want to do so well in these courses. I'm afraid that I won't do well and in turn be a bad teacher. I guess I have too high of standards for myself. I want to be the best teacher to everyone, although I know that's not possible. I think that's why I feel like I did such a bad job as a counselor at camp last summer. I wanted to help all the girls and in turn, didn't help any of them really. I would like a chance to go back and use what I learned and try to do better. I know I could do better. But that's not going to happen this summer. Maybe next. I really want to go back. I miss everyone so much. But I've got to get some finances under control down here first. Which may take a bit.

I realized something. I've been out of a full-time job for 7 months now. That's totally crazy! It's amazing looking back from when I was in high school to thinking how I would be and where I would be in my life by this time compared to where I am at and what I am doing. Of course, then, I wanted to be a physical therapist and working at Texas Children's hospital, but that all changed. Interesting, I've gone back to wanting to really work and help children out. I guess there is the common thread. I'd thought that there was no common thread, but there is.

I want to do some sort of art work or creative writing of sorts and get it on show. That'd be totally awesome. Currently, I'm obsessed with taking pictures of planes. There's a couple of places I want to go to take pictures with some black and white film. I think they could be cool. I don't know if anyone else would think so, but still...worth a shot maybe.

Ok, have to study some I've totally slacked off!

Things you find in a pool

The 4th of July went well. I had to work a party up at Midway in the morning and some, well, interesting things were found there in the pool.

The first was a baby bat. Yes, we found a live baby bat in the pool. Tim rescued him with leather gloves that the poor little thing tried to bite a little. But you can't blame him. I mean being outside in the wind, in the pool and in the daylight, is going to make any night creature a little upset.

Next we had two baby birds blown from a tree and were found lounging on the pool chairs. I really think they were just trying to catch some sun, try out their new bathing suits. So, we rescued them too. They were put in a box to be taken to someone's sister who is a vet.

Then that night went out to see the fireworks by the lake and went with Adam. It was really a lot of fun.

I've been slacking on the homework, but yesterday I was trying to get some reading done, but Stephen was working, which means that even if you've got your nose buried in a book and completely not paying any attention to him, he will still talk to you. So, I didn't get nearly as much accomplished as I would have liked. So, I have to spend today working on it too. *sigh* It's the attack of the never ending homework!!! Run!!

Anyways, speaking of all this homework, I really do have to get on it. Later.