My favorite color

in the summer is gray.

I love the color gray in the summer. Gray means rain. Rain means possible thunder and lightning. Thunder and lightning means the pool is closed. And up here, when the weather turns bad, we aren't sent home like most pools. We are kept at the pool, being paid to goof off. Or in my case, work on homework.

Speaking of homework, I'm almost ready to take my first test in my Everyone Can Learn class. Not that I'm at all freaked out about it....right....I'm so freaked out about not passing. I just want to do so well in these courses. I'm afraid that I won't do well and in turn be a bad teacher. I guess I have too high of standards for myself. I want to be the best teacher to everyone, although I know that's not possible. I think that's why I feel like I did such a bad job as a counselor at camp last summer. I wanted to help all the girls and in turn, didn't help any of them really. I would like a chance to go back and use what I learned and try to do better. I know I could do better. But that's not going to happen this summer. Maybe next. I really want to go back. I miss everyone so much. But I've got to get some finances under control down here first. Which may take a bit.

I realized something. I've been out of a full-time job for 7 months now. That's totally crazy! It's amazing looking back from when I was in high school to thinking how I would be and where I would be in my life by this time compared to where I am at and what I am doing. Of course, then, I wanted to be a physical therapist and working at Texas Children's hospital, but that all changed. Interesting, I've gone back to wanting to really work and help children out. I guess there is the common thread. I'd thought that there was no common thread, but there is.

I want to do some sort of art work or creative writing of sorts and get it on show. That'd be totally awesome. Currently, I'm obsessed with taking pictures of planes. There's a couple of places I want to go to take pictures with some black and white film. I think they could be cool. I don't know if anyone else would think so, but still...worth a shot maybe.

Ok, have to study some I've totally slacked off!