Homework at the last minute

It's amazing. I know that I have things to get done everyday right? But yet, I still end up rushing, last minute to try to get stuff turned in on time. So, tomorrow, I will rush to the post office to get my picture portfolio to my teacher by next Wednesday...better than overnighting it again... And then over to the library to get everything redone in Word, since I don't have Word on this computer, and send it in one big file to the prof, instead of lots of little ones like I've been doing.

Plus, tomorrow we have training. So far, training has sucked!! It's so lame! Like I talk to Linda about how her training go, and they actually do useful stuff in theirs. *sigh* I miss the good old days.

OH! I still need to apply for a job here as a teacher in town. I have to do that online. I guess I could start working on it now. Then call Adam back...find something to snack on since dinner wasn't really much. I kind of threw it together and said, ok, that'll work for now.

And it's back to the same old, trying to get everything done for next week done tomorrow. It's a circle. I'm trapped on a merry-go-'round.

I've really got to make time for Biblestudy. Last night I did read a bit from Tomorrow's World, but was really tired and don't know if I got much out of it. Should probably re-read it at some point.

So, these kids who think each park is a kingdom came by and were sparring across the road. They were nice. They came by to get some water and cool off. Then Elliott, the child lifeguard, decides to go play with them. Which is fine, but I'd kind of like to not have to go hunt him down when he needs to get back to work. Most of the guards are good about watching time and getting back when they need to. I talked to him briefly about it. I donno how he took it. But, I guess we'll see. They exchanged numbers so that Elliott can get involved with the group. I'm sure his parents are just going to love that. Especially the guy with the mohawk. He was nice, but just not people I'd think Elliotts parents would want him to hang out with. Not that I've met his parents, but just from seeing how Elliott is, I'm sure he didn't fall far from the tree. So, that's my Elliott story. I think we all have Elliott stories. I feel bad for all the poor guy. No one really likes him.

Oh, like today. We have a leaky shower that is in the walkway to get to the pool that no one ever uses, but it still leaks. In fact, it leaves a small puddle in the office and in the other hallway. Every day. It's the same thing. Elliott walks in and says, "You might want to turn the water off, it's leaking in here". Fortunately, my manager was there, she looked at me, I looked at her. We sighed and agreed it would be a long day. I asked her if she wanted to stay and she was like, um...no.

It wasn't a bad day though. It even dropped down to only 2 people in the pool. So we had 4 guards in the pool to the 2 kids. Pretty good odds. If something happened then we would be complete morons. Or they would be...the kids I mean.

Well, off to stress about homework some more.

Tired, but not so cranky

I didn't get up this morning. I had a call that lasted until 3 a.m. so, that kind of wore me out. I mean, it's nice talking to people, but I am not a late night person, every single night in a row. Mom said to just unplug and turn off all the phones when I need sleep. I'm just worried that someone out there might desperately need someone else to talk to and call me. Silly, I know. So, anyways, I was a bit grumpy all morning.

Work went good. I played in the pool with my fellow guards and then with the kids. Josh brought me a grape soda. I think I have an 11 year old after me. Nah. I'm just nice to him. I think he needs that in his life. I mean, if he spends 90% of his time at the pool, you know there's not much for him at home. That's how most of the pool rats are. So, yeah, spent the last 2 hours or so dunking kids and playing with them. There are these 2 cute little 3 year old girls who come up. Their mom said they call me the "pool lady" at home. She asked for my name.

You know, I really hate being judged. People like to label me as this or as that, and really, they have no idea what they're talking about. I may open up in some ways and give the appearance of one thing or another, but really, that's just a snapshot in time. It just hurts to know sometimes what people label you as. I donno. I guess I'm just dumb. I need to deal with it and go on. That was part of what was upsetting me this morning too. I think it must have played through my head while I slept and was right there for me when I woke up.

I guess there's not much I can do to change how people perceive me. I mean there is, but I donno. Whatever. It is what it is.

I'm going to start working on my homework. I've gotten close to getting most of the stuff done that I need to, but there's still more to finish before Friday.

I'm amazed at how much work soothes me. It's the oddest thing, but going to the pool is soothing. Even when everything decides to go haywire, it's soothing. I'm just weird I know. I'm sure others who grew up around a pool would feel the same way though. It's like I go to work to relax. This is why I wanted to get back into this so much. If I could make a career out of doing this, I would. But...probably won't be able to. *sigh*

Ok, now I'm really off to do my homework.

First posts are always the hardest

This is so crazy. I must be addicted to these sites. I now have 3, count them, 3 blogs. Of course, 2 are out of date and I pretty much don't show anyone those, but still. I need to stop this obsession.

We had a good sermon by Mr. Meredith today on Understanding Death. I thought it would be harder to listen to, but it wasn't. It was really good. I did tear up when he talked about Mr. Ogwyn. But I tried not to.

The new choir director is trying to get us to do more special music and stuff which is good. Instead of just waiting until the Holy Days. I'd kind of like to try doing a solo, but I don't have any pieces and then again, I question my motives for wanting to. I'll have to consider it and find a piece to do.

I'm thinking about going to the movies tonight. I got two free passes from work because at training we had this competition to see how much change we could get off the bottom of the pool. Our boss threw in $24 worth of change in. I got the most amount. So, that's pretty cool. I've just got to see what's playing over at the theater. I don't think anyone at church is hanging out tonight. A group went over to Gladewater yesterday and are staying for services today.

Hmm...other than that, lots happening, but not really anything left to write about. So, I guess until next time...