Test

Ok, thanks to Jon, I'm doing the personality test thingy. It sounded cool to see what others think of me to see whether I see the same things others see about me. http://kevan.org/johari?name=julieiluj So, if you would please, click and do this. It's quick, so no problems about spending like 2 hours filling out random info or anything.

On another note I'm working as a nanny now. It's going alright. I stay twice a week over there and then get to go home the other nights. It makes me appreciate my home more and more. My fish seem to miss me. Or miss the flakes they use to get twice a day and only get once now. But the family has a wonderful cat. If I had a cat, this is the type of cat I'd like. In fact, I'd love a cat like this. I've never had a cat before. They intrigue me. Oh, and they don't eat sugar...just honey. So, I come home and have chocolate. I like chocolate. I also like my boyfriend. He helped me with my taxes. He rocks!!

I need to get to working on my dress that I'm making. I'm so excited about it. It's made of batik fabric (green with varying other colors splashed on it). It's going to be a sun dress. I've got it all cut out and now I just have to sew it together. Which means put my sewing machine back on the table.

I had an absolute blast last weekend. Bert was down and everyone came to my place and we played Taboo. Out of which came the phrase "I'm federal up with you", since no one could get the phrase "fed up", only federal up. It was so funny! Oh, and we went and visited a guy who's sick. That was great. Hmm...I guess that's about it. I could go on and on, but I'll spare you.

A New Beginning...Again

It is time for a new beginning again. It's amazing how beginnings become the focus of spring and Passover. I guess also included in beginnings is future.

This past week, I was forced into looking for a new beginning. Which is fine. It is opening new doors. I'm surprised at the ways God takes me and redirects me and says, "Well, that's not exactly where I want you heading. Here, I'll remove you from this place and put you over there." And at first it's always hard to deal with. "God, why are you pulling everything out from under me again." And His reply is, "Hold on, you'll see, trust Me."

I still struggle with that trusting Him stuff. To not have complete control over where your life is heading is frustrating. I want control. I want to make decisions and have them work out. But that does not usually happen.

In me, I long for spring. I long for the opening of blossoms. I long for the toil and sweat of rooting around in a garden, watching things spring to life. All that turbulence of turning up the ground, adding water, fertilizer, planting seeds, it's invigorating. I think that is how God may view the spring. The Passover. Here we all go shuffling through stuff we have kept in boxes in the back of our closets from year to year, finding what to keep and what to get rid of. All the time searching our lives for the same type of thing, only spiritually. Seeing what dead things to toss out, what needs to be watered, what needs to be stirred up. And God sees to that stirring up.

And after all this searching, this tossing out of old stuff we don't need, we start afresh, anew. We are given a new beginning. Not that everything is gone, that happens at baptism, but a place where we can re-evaluate and take inventory of where we are and where we should be heading. A place where the future is looked at and planned towards. Where am I heading? Where are you heading? What lies ahead for each of us this next year? Where do we want to go compared to where God wants us to go? Where is God leading each of us?

Currently, I cannot answer those questions. They sneak up on me at night and in the day around each corner waiting to pounce. But I've been here before. Hopefully, this time I'll learn better to trust in Him instead of looking for my own way out.

I ROCK!!

I just finished editing my 4th period class's papers!! And by the time that I told them that I'd have them done!! I totally rock! Not that I normally feel this way about student teaching, but this really made my night. If you have had a sock rocking moment today or this week let me know and we'll all rejoice togther!! ROCK ON!